Life’s Intricacies

“I could not live the lie it would take, to have you here would be a mistake…”

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Sometimes a lot of things in this universe just doesn’t make sense. I mean how could something be so wrong when it simply feels so right? The whole world tells you it’s wrong but deep down you know that it’s right. So which one ranks higher…a realistic world’s wrong judgment? Or a surreal cry of the heart that speaks nothing but the truth?

This is one reason why I don’t like being not busy with school or with any other stuff…because I get the chance to go idle and think about stuff which I wanna think about and forget about at the same time. Arrrgh! here comes the baffling me again.

I just don’t understand why I have to feel this. And why it has to be you that I feel this for. This isn’t really a first time. I mean, why does my heart always go knocking on the wrong doors, huh? [So now, ya know what I’m babbling about!]

I have tried to eradicate the feeling. But then when you do something you’re not really willing to do, achieving succès fou isn’t really as easy as pie. I tried hard…but not hard enough ’cause in the first place, I didn’t want the feeling to go.

 I can’t fathom why all of these have to take place. And neither do I grasp the message being delivered to me.

Why do I smile instead of blush whenever I look into your eyes? Why do I feel so much like myself when I’m in front of you? Some things just aren’t comprehensible. I don’t know when all the questions will be answered. Only time could define this feeling. And so, time, I shall wait. On top of that…everything shall be treasured. Every single thing.