Deceit

Deceit. In a relationship, it’s an idiosyncracy that I so genuinely despise. White lies are negligible. But cock-and-bull stories? Goodness! Man, that’s totally inexcusable! At least if you get it from someone you trust and love, it is. It destroys one of the very chief foundation of a relationship…trust.

 I just can’t believe embarrassment could domineer one’s drive to be truthful. I mean, yes, at certain times it has to be like that. But when it’s uncalled-for…unnecessary..and when it could possibly break a bond that’s precious…has it really got to be like that?

Of course, you had a choice. I(and not just me) gave you the chance to speak out. To just..you know..spit it all out. And I know you know…that it(the truth) couldn’t have altered our relationship. If anything, it would’ve stregthened it, instead. But what? What choice did you make? You made it seem as if you were dealing with robots instead of humans. This brain isn’t programmed, for goodness’ sake! It knows how to assimilate..to distinguish what’s true from what’s not. Do I even have to tell you that?!

I just can’t help but feel betrayed from how everything is right now. Seems like I do not know what to believe anymore. I never thought there wasn’t enough trust in this bond. What is it, really?

What is it? Tell me. Tell me and spare me the bullshit this time.

I would ask you…one more time. And whatever you say, that’s it. ‘Cause even as I fume in this outburst, I still am giving you the benefit of the doubt. I haven’t fully closed it…at least not just yet. Don’t let me.

p.s.(to all who’ve read the entry)
You might have gone to some conclusions as you’ve read the blog entry..but I tell you this and this alone…IT’s NOT WHAT YOU THINK IT IS. IT’s NOT. Leave it like that, ok?